Why do I say this? Blogging has become one of my weekly habits, which is something I am proud of. Last week I forgot to blog and I’ve had this inner sensation poking me all week wanting to tell me this three-word message: I have failed. But why has this hassled me so much? I have never read so many books expressing gratitude towards failure and wanting to convey the same message, saying that you need to fail in order to succeed because failure provides experience and lets you flourish. I am working in my growth mindset, especially in the area of academics and that’s the main reason why not blogging last week hurt me so much. I had been giving the 100% of me, trying to volunteer, to be a leader, to achieve my goals and such a minor thing almost bought all of my achievements to the ground. As someone once said: “If you fall, stand up and try again”, that’s what I am trying to do. This was the first problem that began that snowball.
Luckily, my snowball contained some great “stuff” as well. Just to fill you up, we had our first complete day BlendZ sale. I had never been so excited to sell something! I remember an e mail that Mr. Topf (Innovation Academy “IA” teacher) sent me: “I heard that in Tambopata you were great, you were a leader. I would like to see you like this in class” (this were not his exact words). I finally think that I understood that message and started to fit in as a leader with BlendZ. I may not be the CEO or have any bossy title but my attitude is what counts. I learned that I can lead a group based on my actions. For example, I completed the deliveries, sent people for deliveries, taught the second group how to get organized, helped everyone with their problems, went to Middle School to market BlendZ, etc. I also learned that I administer things well. I administered the deliveries, the checkpoints before lunch and break. The greatest thing that I learned about me yesterday was that I care about BlendZ and that it's not just one of the many projects that I’ve had in life, this one actually counts. The snowball gets bigger and bigger, blending everything together.
I do feel a need to reflect about me as a learner. There are many roads out there but I consider that I am going through the correct one. My organizational skills are starting to consolidate and my balance between the four sections of my life (family, school, water polo and social life) are making its way through as well. While I was writing this blog entry I realized how lucky I am to have a great family, great teachers, to be able to represent my country and to be surrounded by friends everyday. I believe that as I start maturing and start pulling towards the adult side of my life the mixture of my snowball will begin to be filled up with more positive “stuff”.